I found this on my Facebook wall. It was written July 28 of 2022, and I’m posting it here because I want to remember and I want others to remember how good God was and is to me.

Yesterday I was a hot mess and my thoughts were bouncing all over the place because last year, at this time, my son in law, my Soldier Boy, Geoffrey Lyons, was in the hospital
For several days i had Riven and Luke while my daughter, Kateley Lyons wrestled with worry over her husband and took care of baby Ruthie Jane

Those were the days that I had to stay away from my studio, Rockwall Body and Soul Massage because I had been ex
Laura Bjeles and I were supposed to go to the grand opening party and couldn’t because I was exposed and I remember wrestling with the decision because I felt fine at first but knew it was the right thing to do.

My intuition was right because I got the virus and my exact recollection is fuzzy but I remember getting a massive headache and then just being exhausted

I remember going to stay with my daughter so she could watch over me and I was so disappointed in myself because I wanted to be the one helping her,not the one sleeping and fighting to get well

I remember Susan Gamez Balderas bringing magnets and a massage table to Kateley backyard because I was so cold and the two of them walking me outside and I was so weak that I could hardly move

I remember the look in Susan’s eyes and she kept telling me I was going to get better. She commanded it almost and she constantly texted and called to see how I was

I came home and my sons took over bringing me countless grilled cheese sandwiches, making me drink water and juice and then on August 12, I woke up in pain with my leg and, in my muddled mind, thought “a hot bath will make it feel better” and I got out of bed and fell down . I stood up and fell again and again and finally I scooted all the way to my bathroom and ran the tub water and then pulled myself into the bathtub By then it was 1 30a.m on August 13.

At 5 Gregory found me crawling to get back into bed and he picked me up and placed me under the covers .

I remember trying so hard to reach my underwear and camisoles so my sons wouldn’t walk into my room and see me naked and be ruined for life! I fell several times in my closet but I damn sure got some clothes on

Two hours later, Hunter Mead carried me into his truck and to the Sparks Clinic and I started the next part of this journey

This has been the hardest year for me physically and emotionally but I’ve learned so much about myself,about others and about my incredible children and my husband, Greg Mead

I’ve been amazed by the people that reached out and provided meals and vitamins and groceries during those hard days

I think about those and not the ones that disappeared which really surprised me

God has really shown me such love and grace and courage during all this and now every step I take, it’s a blessing

I can’t write any more right now So much is on my mind but I’m
just going to say this

I’m going to fall to pieces and I’m going to be okay. I’m going to need that long embrace and that sugar on toast and I’m going to look for treasures and find that song and dance like crazy

I’m probably going to run behind as I hug my clients right and I’m going to cry in the car

I’m going to say “I love you” a thousand times more even when some sweet child says “ Jamma, I know, you tell me ALL THE TIME!!!”

I’m not going to take a single day for granted or a single step or a single cup of coffee that I can carry across the kitchen to drink at the table

And one day I’ll be able to run out to my car and grab the laundry detergent and the cases of water bottles and carry them upstairs to 925 as easily as I did before Covid bucked me off

But today I’m going to go to Legends Fit where I train with Phu Lam I can not say enough good about this guy. He took me when I was on a walker and practically carried me through the obstacle course of the gym and he’s modified so many Workouts because he understands me and doesn’t underestimate me like so many others have

I’m going to cry today But I’m also going to laugh and I’m going to praise and ponder and pray

So come on, y’all Dance with me over the next few weeks book a massage, come drop by and visit, send a message

I am not graceful yet but I’m so, so grateful!