There’s something on my mind and it seems like writing is the best thing I can do to let it all out.
A few days ago, I walked outside to go to work and saw this morning glory growing outside the rock boundaries and I just smiled and took the picture.
Morning Glories are one of my favorite flowers. I love the way they open up to greet the day and how they seem to keep on coming back in unexpected places…they never give up.
That’s kinda how I feel about my life…I’m never giving up or giving in.
A few weeks ago. Greg went to BJJ with Luke and Riven and I decided to go to The Rustic Warehouse next door . There was a steep incline and then a gravel lot to cross but River grabbed my hands and said,” We don’t give up!” and so we walked in through the back loading dock and all over the place and then when it was time to check out, the store had internet issues so we had to wait.
By the time we got out, Greg had left to run to Lowe’s for parts and so Riven and I stood outside, talking and waiting.
And it dawned on me that this was precious time and I was doing something that I couldn’t have done a few months ago.
Climb an incline. Walk across gravel. Stand and wait.
Simple things that I used to take for granted but I don’t anymore,
Like Morning Glories that grow in unlikely places, finding strength to do simple things becomes extraordinary.
And extraordinary things are actually so simple, really.
During this past year, as I’ve been trying my hardest to regain strength and balance and clarity, I’ve came to realize some things.
There’s been people that have continued to come to me for bodywork even when I could barely stand without falling. These people believed in me and encouraged me so much.
When I saw their names pop up on my schedule, it was like a gift, a standing round of applause, a pat on the back and so much more.
One guy sent me texts every so often with just these simple words “ One Day At A Time”
and he kept coming to me m because he knew that each session I would be a little bit stronger.
Another guy has been coming to me since 09 and there was a day when he looked at me and shook his head and almost carried me down the stairs into Laura Bjeles car so she could drive me home.
He didn’t give up on me and as I’ve gotten stronger again, I feel him cheering me on every time he sees me.
This is some of the things that make all the difference in the world.
The texts, the appointments, the words and the support.
There’s been days when I wondered if I could keep my business running while I wasn’t at my best and the people that showed up for sessions, showed me that I could.
They didn’t give up…I wouldn’t give up.
So here I am…. Making new goals for my body, new plans for my business, new intentions for my family.
After a busy weekend, I cleared out my buffet and restocked it with arts and crafts supplies after realizing I really needed more things for the kids to create with when they are over.
Simple as that.
It’s time to let go of the old things that doubted me and kept waiting “ for a better time” instead of sticking with me through the dark days and believing in the best to come .
God has been making a way in the wilderness and streams in the desert one day at a time, one step at a time,
Jeanna' Soul 