There’s a problem that we have to
understand about how Mephibosheth ended up in Lo Debar, Scripture takes us back to a moment of chaos. War had broken out. Saul’s household was fleeing. Fear filled the atmosphere. Everyone was running for their lives.

In the middle of that panic, Mephibosheth’s nurse picked him up—and dropped him. He was five years old. That fall crippled him for life.

It wasn’t intentional. It wasn’t malicious. But it was permanent.

Some of the deepest wounds we carry did not come from hatred, but from fear, pressure, or people doing the best they could in broken situations. Still, the impact remains.

A five-year-old problem represents an early wound that shapes how you walk through life. If it goes unhealed, it quietly becomes part of your identity. It influences how you trust, how you hope, and how you see yourself.

Has life ever dropped you like that? A moment you didn’t plan, didn’t deserve, and couldn’t undo—but it changed everything.

God does not ignore the fall. But He also refuses to let the fall define the future. David does not see Mephibosheth as damaged goods. Jesus does not see you as broken beyond repair.

The fall is part of the story—but it is not the conclusion.

Reflection Questions:
What moment shaped how I see myself today?
How has that moment influenced my choices?

Prayer:
Jesus, meet me in the moment life dropped me.

Declaration:
My fall does not define my future.”

❤️ oh, sweet Jesus, how much I needed this devotional today.

“ Meet me in the moment that life dropped me,” and I’ve been dropped a lot.

I keep getting back up, brushing off the dirt and climbing back on the horse….. and holding on for dear life.

This almost 5 year old wound is taking its sweet time to heal. My central nervous system has been busted up so much and every day, I’m amazed at the complexity and connection and beauty of the body, mind, and soul.

When my heart aches, my body keeps the score, when my mind is full of goodness, my body moves better, my gait is even, my strength is seen and felt.

Reading through this makes me wonder if others see my limp and immediately think I’m
In pain or weak or crippled.

I’m not.

Not by a long shot.

I am, however, more aware of the perspective others have of me and other people that they don’t really know.

They see the limp, but don’t know the reason.
They notice the hearing loss but don’t realize how much I do hear. They assume without getting answers and that is hard to handle sometimes.

On August 12, 2021, I fell out of my high four poster bed.

That moment defined the next 4.5 years.

Crawling across the floor, I pulled myself into the tub- thinking – not so clearly- that hot water would help me pull my locked knee out.

It didn’t.

Five hours later, my son found me trying to pull myself back up into my bed.

I couldn’t stand up because I couldn’t straighten my left leg.

I got him to help me pull on my cowboy boots and we went to the first doctor of a long, long list of medical professionals that I’ve gone to since that fall.

I didn’t plan this fall, I sure didn’t deserve it, neither, even though I’ve had several people tell me that I did because of my choices and I can’t undone it but I’ll tell you this- I hold tight to this verse right here-

““You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”
‭‭Genesis‬ ‭50‬:‭20‬ ‭NIV‬‬

That fall has showed me a lot about people and a lot about myself, and even more about God.

These are chapters of my book but it’s not the whole story, it’s not the end, not even close.

It’s the fall that shaped parts of me, that exposed what I had thought I knew, and showed me that I’m not broken, after all.

I wrestle with a bunch of “ what if’s” but I never doubt that this is going to be something I talk about and write about with the words “ way back, in the past,” because I fully expect to get over all this and the trauma of that fall will become my testimony as I dance again.

Healing is taking some sweet time but I sure am savoring the wildflowers along the way and I’ll be dancing in them before you know it.