She had pushed back Placed on hold Put it off Over and over Again and again Waiting for the right time Perfect fit Stars to align Everything to be just right And suddenly she realized It was never going to be This day again This moment This chance This life She decided Then and there… Read more

It’s been almost ten years since I’ve felt safe. Safe. That’s the word I use. Not loved. Not wanted. Not understood. Not included. Safe. There’s a difference. I don’t feel safe. I feel as if I’m always on the ragged edge. Just a few steps away from falling over. Losing everything. Lost. I didn’t realize… Read more

This is real This is raw This is what I feel Down inside it all Right in front of anyone That happens to come It takes some special bond To be right there Be seen Let the tongues wag Let them say Whatever they want Get out the red paint Let them wonder Make up… Read more

She thought about this Long and hard As she looked at her body In the mirror behind The door If all the words She had heard Appeared upon her skin And if all the words She told herself Were in red ink Across her skin Would she try In vain to scrub them away Or… Read more

Underneath the ragged blue jeans A hint of pink shows through It holds in the pain Of old injuries Helps her to move With half the grace she used to There’s some dainty lace Underneath her ragged jeans It holds her in Fills the need she has To only have the softest things Next to… Read more

She loved the way she felt Way up here Looking out the windows Seeing the occasional headlights Breaking through the dark She loved the way she felt Way down here Sitting in the rocking chair Holding coffee in her hand Surrounded by the darkness As it changed to dawn She loved the way she felt… Read more

She wondered if It all sounded the same A moan of pleasure Or one of pain She held her breath Willed herself to separate Her body one way Her mind another Controlled every move Played the part best she could If she could hide her eyes Keep under the darkness Then maybe It really is… Read more

It was so much more Nothing less It made perfect sense And none at all It was clear as could be Crystal clear anyway And she knew Everything was So. Much more Nothing less Jeanna’ Mead 10 39 p.m. 9.15.¹9 Read more

She was Footloose But not fancy free Gazing at the moon Sitting outside Rocking chair at midnight She felt at home Even though she wasn’t So to speak She worn old leggings Faded tee that still smelled like hard work and sweat And only traces Of yesterday’s makeup She ate whatever she could find. Wished… Read more

Planned a surprise Thought it would be so nice Caught off guard Little unexpected gift But I missed the mark Didn’t count on this One wrong step And it all fell to pieces It’ll be so hard To ever plan again On another spur of the moment Just because Out of the wild blue yonder… Read more